Who knows..!

14^th June 2019, 22:50hrs…

Today is yet another day but it seems to hold a very different subtle message and a quality that I have never encountered ever before. A kind of deep hidden inner protuberance of something consolidated, profound meaningful mass, hinting a fresh new start of something completely innovative yet original.

My zeal to get back to goal of completing my sharing and bringing it out to light and present it to everyone and anyone who may bother to care or otherwise, seems to have come alive yet again. This time though after a real long gap.

There have been sharing in last year and a half, listening into Gurudev’s personal stories and getting opportunity to transcribe as part of writer’s guild a small group handpicked by our master, we admiringly call Gurudev. Some of which may have already formed part of the book released by his sister (last year after about six months of our little contributions) fondly known as Bhanu didi and others awaiting their turn to be turned into a real sharing someday.

Still the urge to let the inner expeditions, my own story, own sharing play to its own tune and who knows somehow someday somewhere they would be a reason for someone to smile to be inspired and help move them from a situation they may be trapped with, has upstretched its head…!

As if something remains incomplete somewhere within… something dying inside to come to life… a new beginning, unfurling of a wrapped something, sprouting baby yellow green, breaking the outer skin hardened with time, dazzling with a renewed life. As if a paragraph has ended and new one just begun….! Movement from one chapter into another unfinished one. As if the book is now in direct conversation with a part of me within and screaming at its best unheard silent yet peacefully soothing tone and beseeching to let it out…!

We set a goal, take a vow or commit to ourselves to complete some action, and begin to work towards it. Yet there is something higher, someone bigger who is over seeing every act or non act of ours, carrying us silently, gently, all along, pausing at every hiatus we make and finally persistenly coaxing us to take few more steps in the direction we set on!

Isnt it intriguing, how the whole mechanism of life works, the techniques, the intertwined yet independent happenings, that seem to have no connect yet somehow someday appear to have been the cause behind the cause we were imagining all the while…! It is funny too for it teaches us when to let go when to move on when to slow down, when to hasten up, when to just do nothing, halt and when to change into top gear and move forward at lightening speed…. Vroom…. Perfection! yes perfection, thy name is the flow, being one with the flow of time, events, happenings, movement, pauses, turns, twists, ups and downs…. Leads one into an unshackable state of equanimous equilibrium or sorts…!

Yes therefore if one were to let whatever that happens through us around us, for us, with us without us, happen with a welcome bravado, it will not only pass sooner, yet leave us with a lesson or a sheen that would add more shimmer to our otherwise humdrum existence. Sometimes, we may be apprehensive, even scared to be in certain uncomfortable situations, that trigger a kind of unwanted vibration within, a vibe that tells us deep within that something isn’t very appropriate or right…. Yet holding onto that inner turmoil and not boldly going through what needs to happen through us for us only delays the inevitable revolution that set its wheels the moment we came alive on planet earth or even much before that for our body belongs to the earth to may be a certain time period, yet who has seen the spirit, the very essence that creates a body, add a bit of life force and wooosh, adds a breath of life as we inhale….! Who knows..!