Friday, January 22, 2010

Breaking Free - the flow....

It all started from me reading something I wrote the other day, which never got published in one of the places I had sent it for. It came out in others, but somehow I was not very comfortable it being missed out of this one place. Then today, it came out there as well. And it made me smile differently... well some sort of pleasure attached to the fact that something useful that was written, has been recognised. Not sure if the publisher thought it that way, but it definitely made me think that. Thinking about it triggered something deeper inside me. Is it the need for recognition, that drives me at some level, somewhere? For what gets written has a purpose and timing, then why should that be a reason for making me comfortable at some hidden level? It confused me, it made me think at a very oblique level.

I think what happens inside our tiny little heads, is lot more than meets the eye. As we learn from our own little experiences and grow out of our own moulds, created out of limited experiences we have had in past, some concepts carried along the way, some ideas and notions that had no real basis, that got deposited on our memory bank, corrupting our 72000 channels somewhere, somehow, coloring or dis-coloring for that matter breaking, them at places, not known to us, till it gets dislogded, muck knocked out, dirt released and a freshness of fragrant new, flourescent, original form, color, smell, being reinstated.

This is what I feel is what breaking free is all about. Moving from your own limited understanding to a higher inner view of the inner world. It is like climbing a ladder, that has no rungs, leading us higher and higher, deeper and deeper into our unlimited reality from a limited stand point. Confused? well its ok, for the purpose that we have all been carved to fullfill, would one day get divulged to us, sooner or later, whether we are looking for it or not, it is going to appear and reveal itself to us, one day. And standing tall in front of our own eyes, its going to stare back to us and calling our name, say, hey, its me that you were created to be. So better break free from your earlier understanding and come wear me on, become me for you are that and that is what you ought to be.

Now what is that is only but a role that we were chosen to play in the game of life. A game created by someone for its own sake. The game is the not in the end, its not even in going from one level to the next, its about realising, we are moving outward only apparently as we actually go deeper inside, into higher layers of consciousness. The highest being unknown and unreachable, and untouchable, it can only be felt by just being there. Nowhere and everywhere in all times, yet nowhere and never. When the debris from the channel gets realsed, a chemical reaction of different kind occurs, unleashing energy of quantum unknown so far, not experienced so far, unattained so far.

The cleansing, through own learning, raises our own awareness about our inner world, about the real us in us. A journey that may start with hiccups, accidently or through an active interest and taking steps in that direction, suddenly turns intirguing and tasty in some way. Sharing from the heart not only releases some kind of inner energy for you, it also inspires the readers at some level or other, triggering a similar process within their psyche or so it seems........ Who is the author of this game, who initiated it all, for whose sake, for whom, by whom, from where to where, when and for how long, are some of the thought provoking questions that leave me excited at some level. But why should I be feeling excited about it all, its only a game for its own sake. The fun is in the playing, or letting it play with you for anyways you have limited control in the avataar or garb you think you are casted as the role you are playing. Its all about the energy that gets unleashed from where it was lying locked into for ages altogether for thats what it seems once the unlocking happens. The mould breaks, defreezes to its own unreal real reality.......... only to discover it has no real existence in the role it has been playing but into something else, that we all hankering to find out, some actively, some passively, one way or other, we are being led there, consciously or otherwise, from here to there to nowhere, from myself to nobody to everybody to somebody who is the only body that it all originated from and shall move into........... Created from itself, it turned into many, and the many eventually in their due charted course shall figure out the real them being the one from which they originated and that awakening, unfolds a different level of understanding within, making us feeling evolved at a very subtle level....

Observing your own inner reactions, responses, growth, processes, from a distant pedestal, like an observer or spectator of a match being played by players on a game field, and getting aligned with it, lost into it completely, by becoming unaware of whats going on on the outside, is what they call yoga, union of one level with the other, yet knowing one distinctly from the other, using own discriminating intellectual ability. Being lost in oneself, being merged into our own inner reality, is the process of union of unreal with the real and taking us from one level to the next, from a level that never existed to the one that only was, all the time, apparently appearing as different levels..... Simple harmonic motion, resonance of one wave with other, synchronising of one chord with other, mixing of one note with other to form a melody, is all yoga..... Yoga of the mind, body leads one to soul, the highest layers of consciousness, that is the only layer that always was, manifesting as other virtual layers for its own sake or otherwise.....??? Guess I have some more to uncover and discover......... this journey has no end.... it only has an unstoppable flow......!!!

1 comment:

kalyani said...

Wow !!! Well written and nicely explained .... Breaking free - the flow!!! Do write and looking forward to your next one !!!