Monday, January 21, 2008

united we stand divided we fall

hinduism is about being all embracing, that is why you find over 33crore divine names, infact if each one has his own god, it would make up for a unique world. prayer is of the heart, very unique to each one of us.. it does not matter who you bow ur head to, it all goes to that ONE..
sri sri has shown how simply is it attainable by practising what his seva warriors, epitome of peace and love have to share with the world...

unity is required where there is the other, in advaita, there is none other, it is all ONE, so question of getting together to fight a cause does not even arise... we have been like that and sometimes forget that arjuna in each one, does take charge every now and then to shake us out of our own dillemmas, it just needs a krishna to awaken us to our own destiny.... your views about hindu uniting to form a spritual council is wonderful, that has always been the case, our scriptures always talk about these sabhas(councils) working behind the scenes to keep this worldly affairs moving!

been there done that - let go

yesterday was one hectic day, driving upto washington press club with filiz, meeting george, who took us around the 3 different types of rooms that they provide for press conferences.

zenger is the smallest kind, one look and i knew it was not enough. seats 40people looks good, but small. Filiz felt very much the same. Holeman much bigger, brightly lit apropriate for a decent gathering. Ballroom the largest, may be too big for the short duration we have in mind to get this going. availability - 17th, tuesday 2006, 8am to 11am.

ooops, what to do - to book or not to book, filiz carefully takes all details from george, asking the room to be put on hold while we go back and confirm few arrangements.

we left back for her place. picked up her lovely daughters from school enroute, got something from a local store. while waiting for her to return, had a quick coversation with little angels perched up like very sweet kids in back seats of my car. so you must be the naughty one i said to the younger one, yes-- hmm so how do i know.. do u have friends in school in her class, a grin, im sure she has a few who keep feeding her about your naughtiness from your class. yes i do know a few... ok so you hv met guruji, YES and the twinkle in their eyes said the rest...

back home, a quick lunch, the media directory arrived, went through the women's conference coffee table book, remembering all the familiar faces, i have had an opportunity to work with in past.... each one divine.

we started eating and calling up everyone for making sure we do a good job and get the right people to be present for the event. do you think it is too early.. no we are late. ok even i was thinking so, what do u suggest, let us book it for 17th, it is a good day... hmmm
do u like some tea.... sure.. while baking some stuff for kids, this is going to be your future too.... ah..

dr diana was so helpful and excited when we told her about the event and all ready to come over all the way from newyork to share her experience with media. neeraj call the PR Web and make sure you ask them these few questions..ok sure i will, goodluck for your docs appointment!
Jeff said he is ok with the arrangement and we should ensure we do our best. John called later in the evening when i was about to leave, saying how many people he thought would come and filiz said, we are putting in our 100% and we are not the doers so rest is upto guruji.. hmm but we want you there, come what may! OK

travelled back to my brothers place in annapolis and while listening to amrutava, i suddenly broke down into a pool of tears, do not know what was happening, but it was so profuse that i felt i was missing him too much and longing was on its peak so far.

i called back this morning to check plan for today and filiz announced, she had call with ajay and guruji and he felt we better do this after the event, when everyone would know more about us.
the press release is to be released though know we have a few more days to do that... filiz - neeraj you are not going to like all this.. but at least it got us all working together...no no it is ok, afterall he knows better than any of us!

wonder if it was working to make a press conference happen or a dress rehearsal for something bigger to come in future!

been there done that

yesterday was one hectic day, driving upto washington press club with filiz, meeting george, who took us around the 3 different types of rooms that they provide for press conferences.

zenger is the smallest kind, one look and i knew it was not enough. seats 40people looks good, but small. Filiz felt very much the same. Holeman much bigger, brightly lit apropriate for a decent gathering. Ballroom the largest, may be too big for the short duration we have in mind to get this going. availability - 17th, tuesday 2006, 8am to 11am.

ooops, what to do - to book or not to book, filiz carefully takes all details from george, asking the room to be put on hold while we go back and confirm few arrangements.

we left back for her place. picked up her lovely daughters from school enroute, got something from a local store. while waiting for her to return, had a quick coversation with little angels perched up like very sweet kids in back seats of my car. so you must be the naughty one i said to the younger one, yes-- hmm so how do i know.. do u have friends in school in her class, a grin, im sure she has a few who keep feeding her about your naughtiness from your class. yes i do know a few... ok so you hv met guruji, YES and the twinkle in their eyes said the rest...

back home, a quick lunch, the media directory arrived, went through the women's conference coffee table book, remembering all the familiar faces, i have had an opportunity to work with in past.... each one divine.

we started eating and calling up everyone for making sure we do a good job and get the right people to be present for the event. do you think it is too early.. no we are late. ok even i was thinking so, what do u suggest, let us book it for 17th, it is a good day... hmmm
do u like some tea.... sure.. while baking some stuff for kids, this is going to be your future too.... ah..

dr diana was so helpful and excited when we told her about the event and all ready to come over all the way from newyork to share her experience with media. neeraj call the PR Web and make sure you ask them these few questions..ok sure i will, goodluck for your docs appointment!
Jeff said he is ok with the arrangement and we should ensure we do our best. John called later in the evening when i was about to leave, saying how many people he thought would come and filiz said, we are putting in our 100% and we are not the doers so rest is upto guruji.. hmm but we want you there, come what may! OK

travelled back to my brothers place in annapolis and while listening to amrutava, i suddenly broke down into a pool of tears, do not know what was happening, but it was so profuse that i felt i was missing him too much and longing was on its peak so far.

i called back this morning to check plan for today and filiz announced, she had call with ajay and guruji and he felt we better do this after the event, when everyone would know more about us.
the press release is to be released though know we have a few more days to do that... filiz - neeraj you are not going to like all this.. but at least it got us all working together...no no it is ok, afterall he knows better than any of us!

wonder if it was working to make a press conference happen or a dress rehearsal for something bigger to come in future!

divine pinch

EACH MOMENT WITH HIM A LESSON

His recent gift on xmas was a pinch on my left upper arm right above the elbow. "Tum seva kar rahe ho?" Ji guruji. "Nahin silver jubilee ke liye aur karo." Left me wondering.

This was his 3rd visit this year ever since I came to US and he continues to reach out to each one of us in his own way. So far I could not devote much time towards seva activities since we were blessed with a little princess last month. I thought planning to donate part of my salary, making travel arrangement to be in Bangalore for the event, getting Mikey to talk with my manager for a corporate course possibility were sufficient initiatives. Gurus' pinch triggered fresh ideas, initiatives and avenues to explore for seva.

Here is what happened so far:
.Forwarded softcopy of tribune article .1000 gather for Guru. to contacts.
.Called up aolite Bangalore friend, got fund raising material for India, sentit out to my contacts there.
.Called Ruby/Suresh/Kishore to get involved in doing fund raising in NewJersey.
.Priya and little angel Soumya accompanied me yesterday evening for our firstfund raising calls. Others thought I was bit out of mind carrying a new born incold for seva. In my heart I know how I wanted them to be with me initially sothat little twinkle in Soumya's eyes played guruji's magic on the people wewere approaching for ads. and that way laxmiji blessed our efforts too. .Spoke with Suresh and a none-AOL contact to utilize extra time (3-4hrs everyday) at hand from my regular fulltime job in doing any kind of job whichprovides additional sum. Needless to mention this amount would be donated forsilver jubilee. Need everyone's help to find one quickly preferably within AOLfamily.

Guruji knows our abilities are really much more than we think, and through hisdivine pinch he continues to push us like a father his son, so that we do notget stuck in small mind and go beyond our comfort zone to do more. After allnature, like the ocean never keeps a drop that you put in, always returns it inthe form of rain, snow, sunshine, in-numerable blessings that keep flowingcourtesy HIS DIVINE grace. So what are we waiting for?

Suresh told me guruji is happy at NJ's progress so far. Wonder if that isenough. We certainly are capable of much more. Are 1991 NJ yahoo group memberswaiting for divine pinch to join the Silver jubilee group of 31? If so, I am more than willing to continue being his instrument, to shake each one out of small mindedness - let us not get STUCK with the IDEA that we havedone enough or are approaching same set of people for doing more. And who do wethink is doing whatever is happening? It is part of divine plan, his will, hisaction, which has never gone un-accomplished. So if someone thinks he/she is done enough, think again, divine has no limits,the guru in you is waiting to pinch you out of this idea.

Special thanks to Vikas for providing me esatsang address to share my recent experience with bigger family. And sharing what to focus on this week per guruji's direction. Jaigurdev!

smart seva

I remember way back in 2002, when guruji took me with him to Rishikesh in hiscar, sitting behind him, adorning a rainbow colored turbun gifted by the WaterSamellan event, he had stopped enroute for and black glasses, turns around,"main kaisa lag raha hun???"" guruji bilkul goonda lag rahe ho..

Following 3 weeks in rishikesh swarg ashram, churned me inside out. Came backto Delhi and spent another couple of months staying at Maheshjis 35H, SouthExtension home, turned to little ashram, alongwith Nitin Bhaiya (now RishhiNitya Pragya), Bharat Bhiaya, Prasanna Prabhu, Niranjan Dev, Anil Bahl, AjeyVij, Aruna Didi, doing seva. That time guruji's focus was to conquer delhi thecapital of India. Turn in the politicians and IAS officers, they affect lives ofmillions, if each one is transformed, see how much change it could bring tothose they interact with (least guess 50,000 each every month).

Today charged with the DIVINE PINCH, I thought this TRUTH must be applied forsilverjubilee fund raising and reaching out to people seva as well. Here is what I have done from yesterday: #Called up local ad magazine: little india and bargained for a reciprocal ad in next publication. While going through the magazine found ad of Sakara Eye foundation. Asking for $1000 contribution to get ones name written on eye hospital wall that would be built from the funds generated. Gave me an idea tofulfill HIS VISION, smartly. Balle Balle Sri Sri Ravi Sanakara, you continue to reach me in innumerable ways.
#Called up news paper that carried guruji's latest US visit article. Have gottheir offer to carry our ads, working to finalise the same before getting itreleased.
#Called up Vikas, Ruby and Suresh to share how we could do something similar and increase our reach out to everyone through ads on this mega saga spritualolympic that our krishna is arranging for all.
#Spoke to Ajay, to get guruji's blessing on our ads context.
#all this while driving for a satsang and princton volunteer team meeting at lalithaji's ashram, alongwith this time only my little angel Soumya, Mom priyadecided to carry on with packing for taking off back India on 31st. Not tomention Soumya was very co-operative and attentive to serious planningdiscussions we had with Ruby and Suresh leading the team.
Ruby: tumko main example father ka title dene wali hun, you manage Soumya so well! no no, i just wanted priya to know how I would feel once Soumya is awayfor next month and a half. No Neeraj Suresh never did anything like this (shealmost whispered...::)). Well does my guru not show each one true way to carefor everyone who belongs to us?
#Placed couple of free ads on Sulekha.com and InetGiant.com inviting everyoneto participate in this event.
#chat with Anju Bhatia from Bangalore to share what I was doing up so late inUS.
#read a response on my experience DIVINE PINCH, which got read out in a satsangin Delhi by Vandana Aadesh, that guruji wants everyone to actually put in 100%and more.... #decided to share my daily progress and experiences here. Guruji says if you have a talent and you do not use it, it is likely to be taken away from you. Sodont wait, PINCH URSELF, SCRATCH upper most portion of your head, pull the250,000th hair right above the left ear, let fresh ideas flow, pick at leastone - ACTION IT NOW. SMART GURU SMART SEWAKS SMART SEVA.... jaigurudev.......

chalo chalo.... jaldi karo time is fleeting time is fleeting time is fleeeeeeeeting... and myheart is beating of the guru melody, by guruji's grace, for GURUJI...........and each one of you out there.

Remember guruji just wants us to reach out to everyone, giving them a chance to take part in this MEGA YAGYA, so that they all get the yag-phal and are notleft wondering why they never knew it before hand that such wonderful opportunity was only a few steps away.....!!! And how much guruji loves one andall......... "main sab ko ek nazar se dekhta hun", he once said closing one eyewith his hand, triggering tons of laughter in a highly serious Teacherrefresher course at Simla. JAIGURUDEV... i remain truly, Guruji's instrument, principle consultant on howto exploit internet to reach out to the masses quickly,,,, stay tuned for DO ITMIKEY story that i intend writing tomorrow....... ******************

flute that krishna played

Dear Divine Devotee,

You are in my heart, like I am in yours. meetings to discuss and finalize plans for upcoming PDS are underway. there are some who may not be able to directly take part in planning and execution, therefore would like to keep everyone abrest of developments so that we all begin to eat, drink, walk, talk, sleep, think, imagine, and let the PDS become a part of our awareness till we reach the day it actually happens, let us all put in our best focus and energy to make it and take it to the level it awaits to reach through each one of us. let the chaos begin, the taandav enacted...

NCR has had many mega events so far, there are many more underway and everyone is working towards one common goal, like HIS instrument, transcending all layers of existence to connect, dip and merge directly into the SELF and beyond. You know we all carry the small mind with us for it is apparently very light in weight, it costs nothing, is available freely, is very proactive, is there to become the devil's advocate without charging an apparent fee, for it gives ideas that short circuit our journey to freedom, lets us be in touch with all our insignificant layers and veils the real self, the big mind so craftly.

R U WITH ME?
But what worth it really is? Just dig in and you will discover, it is a cause of misery, it is the one that is driving us away from reality, turning our focus to small little doubts, jealousy, cravings, comparison, fame, doership, etc and not letting us remain in constant companionship with the big mind which looks at the vast skies, giving me an idea of who am i. sets me free, tells me i am infinity, i have no limits, i am beyond critisism of small minds, i am not a role, not a label, not even a reciever of credit for what happens, beyond all these and much more, that cannot be defined, explained, censored, refined, captured, held back, described, therefore understood, i am the presence larger than life, action without act, love without condition, peace without pleasure, pure, sat chit ananda, that and beyond, i am not someone's idea of a rule, form, not what small minds think i am, not that can be withheld but by my ownself, not another's opinion, nor fame, neither infamy, not another's way of doing things, not even these words, i carve my own road, yet respect others ways, opinion, views, ideas, rules, definitions, imagination, have compassion large enough to encompass the universe, inclusive view of a big team working together building a better tomorrow for one and all.

R U here?
i do not know anything, yet i know THAT, aware yet open to recieve every moment, alert yet lost in my guruji's blissful self, here yet not here, far from HIM longing to be with him physically all the time, yet one with him, his presence with me beyond time, see him through all instruments skillfully arranged in the biggest orchestra that HE has evolved over such a short period of time, he is the melody that i am tuned into every moment, he is the love that flows through me endlessly, love that touches, bridges, nurtures, cares, shares, uplifts, raises, irons out, enlivens, makes one go crazy, that trendy fashion statement of corporate professional or whoever, who lost his small mind in numerous, foolish attempts, to merge in big one..

DID U GET IT?
i am there to let the air that he blows into this flute be blown out loud and clear like a lovely soul stirring music somewhere described in the sama veda, somewhere concocted by numerous magicians of music world, perhaps notes of beethoven's playful piano, for sure the intertwined string intoxicated rhythm of guruji's veena!mast ho jao, kiyun ki WOH sab kar rahe hain, dekh rahe hain!You are the flute that krishna played, guruji my krishnalike HE is the one getting the spiritual masters of the world together, is there a need to connect all devotee, volunteer, teacher divine souls?? who belong to each other through the big mind, yet sometimes may get caught up in the small mind, who have done so much and have the ability to do much more, who are intense, yet wish to become more sensitive, who are grown up, yet love to grow more, who are significantly selflessly immersed in letting the tasks done by him through them happen, yet sometimes feel stuck in the pride of doing it, nobody, yet connected to everybody out there who is tirelessly, selflessly putting in his/her best foot forward in this march, it is all his play anyway, so why take it too seriously

R U READY FOR Pure Divine Dip into SELF!
may guru's grace always keep me humble JAIGURUDEV aho niranjano!!
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sab PDS ke liye kaam karo...... Sri Sri

"Sab PDS ke liye kaam karo, ek ek se hissab loonga...."
Those who recall Divine Pinch from silver jubilee days, are familiar with HIS ways to inspire, instil and establish that needs to be done, at perfect time in subtlest manner, a skill he continues to teach us through demonstration.
While entering check-in area for boarding his flight to Hyderabad from Delhi on night of 5th Jan 2008, after giving some phenomenal talks at 5 different mega events in 1.5days, looking straight into eyes of each one encircling him, moving along as a big bouquet of flowers tuned into his divine nectar, he thus spoke in honey laden tone, with Index finger (guru) pointing out, thumb (mangal or the warrior) holding the rest in a tight grip, hand moving subtly from one to the next;
"Sab PDS ke liye kaam karo, ek ek se hissab loonga......" with a smile as big as ever, eyes rolling naughtily with a twinkle all around, making each cell permeate with the eminence he attaches to this event, with a distinct detachment of krishna's larger than life play act.
Here is what I understood:
I have always done everything for each one of you and continue to do so. This PDS is also for you, so that the Divya Samaj Nirmaan that DSN volunteers are suppose to help create gets done effortlessly for you today and your kids tomorrow. Mixture is churned, cask laid, mould set, and oven ready at temperature needed to bake. All we need to do now is pick up the jelly filled mould place it in the oven, to turn it into cake. And he waits to come back to check the "Purushaarth" each one puts in so that he can square up our karmas in one go as icing. GRACE, unending, unconditional, unlimited, understatement of the kalyug, as if avatar of kaalki himself is here to give life to what Krishna gave in Gita to Arjuna 5000+ years ago.
Each one get ready for PDS (Pure Dip into the SELF) joy ride.
DRESS CODE for the march to destination CAPITAL PDS:
· attire : smile
· armour : guru faith
· approach : unshakeable attitude
· skill : guru focus
· knowledge : guru gyan
· ability : guru dhyan
· mantra : guru vakyam
· prayer : guru padukam
And join hands yet again to create a historical PDS, after all Capital is the Heart and Soul of a country, what happens here will create multiple unending ripples across the nation and further the cause of Vasudhiav Kutumbakam!!!
I was witness to Pune PDS in Nov 2007, largest so far with his Grace and told Delhi will do better than that. Numerous amazing healing experiences I saw in Pune, shall share later..... Guru’s grace will take you and those you care for to their real HOME, for even oceanic tsunami does not touch children of god, places of worship, those established in TRUTH!
Stay tuned for juicier, fattier, wholesome and heart appealing news in coming days!!!
However, here is sample helping for salivating souls as appetising starters....
HE has been telling us all to read Yoga Vashistha and Gita. I am sure many of us have already done it or are in process, or praying to HIM to grant them courage to make a beginning. While we devotees, are busy imbibing, learning, reading the epochs old scriptures, he is busy to write and release the latest versions of the TRUTH in present day language and form that is easily chewable and digestible.
He provides the ingredients, cuts the vegetables, cooks, turns, saut├ęs, unleashes the flavours, creates the aroma, serves, eats, makes the enzymes available for digestion, digests and makes each one feel fulfilled. He is the doer of all, yet does nothing, one in whom everything arises, everything merges, everything transforms, changes, yet remaining forever unchanged. He is the TRUTH he speaks, writes, teaches, exemplifies, demonstrates, travels...hah....
HE is the only reality, MAHATRUTH of all truths!!!!
Latest sutra unfurled by HIM during his recent visit in various events ( Management of Transformation, Pranayam Centre foundation stone laying ceremony, World Congress of Pshyscology and Spirituality, Rotary Club District Conference on India Rising,.....)
Secularise the Society,
Spiritualise the Politics,
Socialise the business.
JAIGURUDEV aho niranjano!

Tuesday, January 1, 2008

None Before Never Again

Once upon a time....

7th April 2006

This is story of a unique boy.

...and a unique master, who touched, transformed, tracked and took his life to zenith that the boy always dreamt to reach. (added on 17th April 2006).

10th April 2006

Rather this is about birth of an idea. That took 39years of gestation, simmering, nurturing, germination, before it sprouted to inhale the fresh air from deep underground towards the open skies in search of rays of sun.

39years, yes some ideas rise and die in our heads, some are recognized, voiced, even shared, but never converted to action they promise to hold within, or potential of which is not explored to its ultimate capacity. This one, may have commonality with some others, in that someone else would have also had it and used it to do what I intend doing with it.

The uniqueness however, is in the ground that bore it, the mind that recognized it, the conscience that picked it from deepest layers to bring it out on the surface for others to savor it, be enriched by its beauty, fullness, profound impact that it promises to have on generations to come.

Each year the idea got pushed from one layer to next higher up, sometimes it even got pushed back a few layers down. Eventually on 7th April 2006, it was born when I chose to christen it and bring it to life and also wrote the 1st line above. After that it went into background till it resurfaced today.

"None before... never again" attempts to reveal evolution process, each one undergoes, in a lifetime or across multiple lifetimes. A book may be less to describe 39years of someone's life time; words cannot capture experience with its total dimension. Time however, is mystical in nature that what we experience in a year can be reflected upon in an hour while we sit down on New Years Eve to make a new year wish!
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00:32am, 3rd January, 2007

Just realized I had already stepped into another day. 5 months expressed in about 5 pages couple days ago when I resurfaced from my eternal slumber to carry forward the task I entrusted upon myself, with an idea, that seems to have taken longer than it thought it would to turn into a full tree, is still somewhere in the sprouted form, raring to quickly grow up to catch the sunlight shone atop the tallest trees in the jungle of life.

Everything is in me; I am in everything, said lord Krishna to Arjuna while reciting Gita to him some 5000 years ago. Personally affirming and confirming and conferring the supreme knowledge to his devotee, friend, fighter, demonstrating his supreme form upon request. While I was reading it, I was reminded of my nascent experience with my master when undertaking a program some 5 years ago, where during my meditation, I saw my master in physical form moving across my entire body in lieu of each movement of prana shakti (life force) while practicing yoga nidra ( a form of meditation when one is lying down on back, hands away from body, feet little apart from each other, eyes closed, attention on breath and mind focused and moving along with instructions from tip to toe to legs, to hips, to abdomen, to chest to arms, to hands and out….From abdomen to stomach to chest to heart region to throat to between the eyebrows to forehead, to top of head to above and beyond the head) A team of about 24 masters moving in succession one after the other, in one go, I was amazed, I was blessed, I was soaked in the divine love of my master for my being, resting my soul in him. I shared it with my teacher, who expressed wonder and left it at that. In another year from then at the Vishalakshi Mantap during guru poornima, (birthday celebration of rishi vyasa, who was the profounder of Vedas, the supreme knowledge about life which was personally conveyed to Arjuna by Lord Himself), I seated amongst a crowd of 5000 plus disciples, devotees from across the globe under my masters direct supervision and instructions for performing the Bhastrika Pranayam, I had a vision of my master manifesting through everyone, I saw him all around me, the vision for my mind was hair raising, yet each moment of it soaked every atom of each cell into a inexpressible sensation, not a tingling vibration, nor a wind blowing through the pores, nor a fragrance of the pious kind, nor a flickering of the light, yet a continuum of luminous shining bright faces, looking alike, putting each bit of me to divine rest, subtly drawing me into deep silence of unspoken syllables, from being to merging to dissolving into the sublime void of breathless moment, captured in time, released unto space in space, devoid of any impurity, pure like white sheet of freshly woven white cloth, unending expanse, a rising tornado of blue, purple, white, pink streaked airy bubbles, moving in exquisite unison yet circular and rising from the nether to the ceiling of the lotus shaped meditation hall…………An experience I thought I would never share with anyone, yet it came back to me so pure and manifested while reading about what is conveyed in the scriptures.

Determination that the steps that are led by him for his sake unto himself through his plans, taking through you, making happen what happens, makes your feet more balanced on the sandy grounds, firmed up, restrained, established, sunk in, situated right where they were destined to be, steadfast into unshakeable, calm, poised, serene, solidified conscience, like the silence of starlit night sky, unto space, from space, through space, towards space, merged, frozen, cemented, grounded, rocked in, mounted, silenced, without another word………….. unmoved, unfazed, fixated, only thought, only vision, only void, only resting abode, only ocean, only breeze, only fire, only ether, only liquid, only earth, only body, only breath, only mind, only memory, only intellect, only ego, only the supreme witness, the super hero, the superlative, the super form, the formless, the indescribable, beyond truth, beyond all this, this yet not this, that and more than that, exclusive yet all inclusive, wondrous amazement, ponderous blankness, white spot in the blackboard, sun of universe, coolness of the moon, greenery of the vegetation, juiciness of fruits, fattiness of fats, unexplained unending existence of same, similar, original, only that which exists in reality, rest all being words, expressions, variants, models, manifestations, petals, blossoms, leaves, branches, twigs, buds, bark, trunk, stem, roots, seeds, saps, code, encodes, mystified, mysteriously hidden, opulently transparent, latent, potent, proponent, demystified truth told time and again yet remaining untold.

Another hour gone by… and beginning of page 101, time for some rest now!